god, where do I start....
for the last month or so I have felt like I have been drowning.... I cant seem to get on top of anything. My house is a absolute mess and I don't seem to have the drive to get off my fat arse and do anything... I find myself sitting on the couch with the laptop and that is as far as I seem to get... I would be so embarrassed if someone walked into my house right now
I have been Cranky with everyone :( Craig has been away alot lately, and I am sure he is glad that he is... it isn't a happy house. And I don't know if that is why I have been like I am.
My only good thing in my life at the moment has been my scrapping... but then again it is all or nothing. I find myself not leaving my scrap desk for days or I don't want to go any where near it... does this make sense??? I think I hide myself away in there away from everything..
I went to my doctor a week or so ago to get a repeat on my meds and he asked how i was going.... and I said "GREAT" and I think on that day I probably was. if I went to see him today I certainly wouldn't say that.
I have been laying in bed for hours stressing that nothing is getting down around here and how the hell I was going to fix it..... I am sure that my kids are suffering from this all.... even cooking tea has been a battle...I used to love cooking for my family, and would spend hours planning and preparing meals for them... now it is just a slap up meal..what you get is what you get :(
I don't know if it is the crappy weather that we have been having that has triggered it off again... I do know that it has been a trigger before...
What I do know is that with me recognising that I am struggling is usually the first step and I am hoping that from today onwards will be a step FORWARD for me!
I want to thank all of my gorgeous online friends, some that I have met in real life and others that I cant wait to meet, for all the love and support that you all give me. I don't know where I would be without you all
Love Donna xx